more to say

but i will hold my tongue for now. as this is far more important:

my 2nd avuncular appointment

my second nephew was born tonight. alexander jacob. this has been one hell of a month for me.

welcome to the world, my boy. i have many things to show you.

[pictures will follow, for sure.]

"oh, your nostalgia file...

i'm made of sugar

or so it would seem

because i can't reach you
you're too far away

but you're right inside

i know you're in there. like an old movie you haven't thought of for years...


to round out the album i'm sure you've never heard:

i need you so much closer
i need you so much closer
i need you so much closer
so come on

it's the type of anthem i hope to one day pen, and play at a coffee house some night before i die.

DoNotReply

in 1991 or so, the name Marcel was synonamous to me with heartache and insecurity. in my mind, he was a faceless man who seemed to be perched on the edge of town, waiting to come at night and steal things from me. he was dark, and powerful, and capable of anything it seemed. his name was always shrouded in mystery, as i never met him, never saw a picture of him, and only heard stories of him. but i knew that i was threatened by him... and how do you fight an enemy you can't see?

now, years later, the name is just sort of a nice layer of crap-icing on a pretty much crappy week.

so, do you think Alfie ever figures it out? (3 stars means it was good)

whisper quiet

i saw my life there
among the mountains
with these notes making my soundtrack
to get me through the tough times
i felt at home
zooming around those curves
watching the sun going down
and being old and new all at once.

today there come new adventures to consider.
today there come old faces to remember.
today there comes a latent excitement too long in coming.
today there comes a time for looking forward, instead of back.
at the end of the day it is only me.

experiment with refrigerator magnets

As foundation, no, getting confused…my isn’t. I need Google Earth. I wonder am realize you were trudging this day with. I wonder what like you’re. I, for my friends. I suspicion stop on the yesterday. I miss I am. time wonder how you’re your relationships time. I need that stupid, because of things we’ve think so about… I this. our need lack of caught shit together, our lack of. I need to feel let through. I previous well fucked am matter of fact I shouldn’t to be I need to at I am. starting to see you as sadness. I need to stop EL looking than your up on. For myself, but I do why need. wonder if I let an enemy go. And better now I’m I’ve starting to building my go saddled spending sounds to day someone else . And I know already doing you terribly talked you to you. From to let what I going your eye very badly how know about you, I don’t, but there is that let there’s feeling. I really you. That who’s creeping go. I guess you always need to go. I let you go really I to up by never been stopped.

it must be italian

life is so fragile.

and i only include these words here because i've heard them a record 6 times today without seeking them out....

Find yourself a girl and settle down
Live a simple life in a quiet town
Steady as she goes
Steady as she goes
So steady as she goes

Your friends have shown a kink in the single life
You've had too much to think, now you need a wife
Steady as she goes
as she goes
she goes

the attention of a little wife

sniff sniff sniff

the amount of information that is taken in by the canine nose must be astonishing. and there is no feeling quite as charming as having a dog's snout glued to your leg after you come home having just visited a home with another dog... i wish for a few moments i could know what it's like to smell like a dog, and hear like a dog, and sense seizures and drug paraphenalia like a dog...

the garage got cleaned out today, and almost entirely organized. tomorrow, some time with the parents, and maybe a ride on the jet-ski, and then maybe the basement. there is also all of the yard, my room, and most of the rest of the house. no shortage of projects around here to fill the remainder of a week off of work.

hair of fire

a semi-innocuous goodbye
like i'd see you tomorrow
a long drive
and an afternoon of thinking about it

i wonder if you're sleeping
i wonder if you'll read this in the morning
i wonder if you really apologized to your friends for me

but the actions i can't take
the words i can't say
all add up to where i am tonight
i lay myself down
to sleep another night with those lyrics in my head
to play over and over
without relief

it took God 6 days to create the earth and heavens
and given his obvious superior natural ability
why not give us a little break
and let's see what date lucky number 13 has in store for us...?


the Family
with all their iniquities
and all their collective suffering
might have something we don't have
they might have the insight to see the bigger picture
the one that's beyond you and me
so please forgive my numb ignorance
so please forgive my self-absorbancy
take those two and call me in the morning.
i'd love nothing more than to talk to you while on my way to pick up the shelves my parents are dropping off with me so i can bring some order to my life and to my garage and basement.

i'm willing to put that up against keates and yates and jerry.