explosions off in the distance

movie premiere night.

can't work.

too excited.

it's a different energy than i feel on opening night of a play. i don't have anything to do tonight but sit there and be embarrassed by what an ass i am when i have a video camera pointed at me.... [and i've been drinking].

it's nine hours and 14 minutes away, and i don't know what i'm going to do with myself. it feels so good to be excited and happy about something again. too much time is spent feeling other things. it's so nice to feel happy.

"the nicest thing about being happy is that you never think you'll be unhappy again."

a fitting end to a great summer... well, depending on who wins Big Brother 8.....